Looking for another perspective.

Ashes likes people a lot but being a sick person makes her love towards people become hate. I'm here standing beside her but I'm not capable of doing much. What can I say, I too has my own limit. Seeing her facing all the humiliation to her self makes my heart ache. I pray for her safety. I keep asking what actually happening but until this moment I don't have the answer. But surely I learned my mistakes. I did wrong things to her many times, but in depth I care about her like a friend, I do care and I hope I'll be staying the same. I hope this love will not disappear.

I am selfish, sometimes I just hope she will get better, unfortunately it won't be easy. Whatever happen, I pay the price of it, although it kind of tiring, but what can I do, she's my friend.

I'm glad I'm a big liar, lying is good as long as I don't create trouble for other people. Lying is nice as long as I'm helping others and lying also great as if I can hide my own weaknesses.

I'm selfish
I'm a liar
I'm scared
and I'm a coward

I don't have much time. Please show me the way until my heart can rest in peace.
Ya Allah...