I wish I'm evil.

If i'm evil, at least, i don't think much about other people, i won't feel stress to take care people's heart. and i won't be crying because of something that i really can't do, but forcefully i need to take responsibility for. I'm sorry, I'm weak, i hope i am evil. but i know, i don't have a heart to do it. to hurt anyone, i just let myself being hurt, i wouldn't hurt others because that's my strength also. deep inside, it's just confusing.