i'm sorry for myself, i become a bit annoying lately, usually i'm not really concern about guys but now i guess i'm not being myself. what's the point i concern about guys. they actually don't like it, maybe as a friend. but for me concerning a friend who is a guy totally unacceptable. because girl and guy definitely have their barrier. what i do is so annoying, i'm mad at myself. but i'm not sure either, i did something wrong and i felt ashamed of it. i'm sorry Allah, i can't be a good follower until now, YOU love me so much but i never reply it back. i'm sad :)
Naim-i guess, i'm not a good friend after all, what i mean is i don't really need to talk to you actually, i'm sorry.. i won't care about you anymore and anyhow. i'm lacking of empathy, i must overcome it. i'm sorry everybody, i'm sorry... Allah love you more but Allah keep loving me until now every second and every day, i'm regretting my action before and i'll never ask anything like that anymore. i'm disturbing him, his mind, his soul, his heart.. are for Allah and his beloved people only, i'm just a typical girl who can't walks through that wall and barrier because Islam is beautiful. and he is beautiful enough for me to leave it alone and not dirty it. i'm sorry. in Islam i can't speak like this, but i can write like this because i need to push it away from my mind and my heart. then, i will be looking for a better future without doing anything like that anymore. stop being too concern.
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