i hate myself...

4 only think bout wht happened on that day, i hate myself for being too weak, i hate myself for hurting my friends, i hate myself for what i told before, for what i did and for what i thought. and i just can't like myself for being too nice also. huh? should i feel this kind of emotion right now?! just stop it, aku perlu kuat, kuat and kuat!!! yeah!!!